I haven't written a blog post in a while. I was going to in April and then May and even June, but I felt like I didn't have anything beautiful to write about. I felt like I wasn't having big enough revelations and awesome moments to write a whole blog post.
To be honest, these past few months have been so hard. So challenging. I wasn't snapping out of the frustration, discouragement, stress etc. Who wants to hear about that? Who wants to hear about how hard of a time I am having? And, there isn't a final revelation or an 'Ah ha!' moment where it all fell into place. I'm actually still going through a challenging time, even now. Except now I feel differently about writing a blog post about it. I was reading someone else's blog post and there was a line that went something like this: "it doesn't all have to be perfect, you just have to get back up and keep moving".
And then it hit me. I have something to write about because of this: The reason I can get back up a thousand times is because I have Jesus. In all of my worry, discouragement and mess, He is still great. He is holy. He is worthy.
That is something worth writing.
I don't have to have all of the answers. I don't have to have my whole wedding planned right away or know how I am possibly going to get everything I need. I don't need to control every moment or try to do everything on my own.
I need Jesus.
I am still going through this process. I'm still climbing the mountain- almost at the top.
I do, however have some things that God has taught me along the way:
In order to move forward, I need to surrender. I don't have the best plan, He does.
I can trust God. Not just with health or finances or ministry, but with everything.
He hears my prayers. He hears them. He cares. He loves me with an everlasting love.
I go to God and say "Lord, I feel heavy. I feel burdened. What do you want me to do? How do I get rid of this mess? I need to know what to do."
and He tells me "you need to let me in. the reason you have a heavy weight is because you haven't surrendered it to me. give me your worry and stress and I will take it. YOU don't need to do anything. let ME take care of it."
Trusting God seems so easy. Of course I trust Him. These past couple of months, though, I have been asking Him what that means.....and I am realizing I have a lot to learn about surrender.
God IS trustworthy. He is faithful and kind. In all of my mess, He is so great.
To be honest, these past few months have been so hard. So challenging. I wasn't snapping out of the frustration, discouragement, stress etc. Who wants to hear about that? Who wants to hear about how hard of a time I am having? And, there isn't a final revelation or an 'Ah ha!' moment where it all fell into place. I'm actually still going through a challenging time, even now. Except now I feel differently about writing a blog post about it. I was reading someone else's blog post and there was a line that went something like this: "it doesn't all have to be perfect, you just have to get back up and keep moving".
And then it hit me. I have something to write about because of this: The reason I can get back up a thousand times is because I have Jesus. In all of my worry, discouragement and mess, He is still great. He is holy. He is worthy.
That is something worth writing.
I don't have to have all of the answers. I don't have to have my whole wedding planned right away or know how I am possibly going to get everything I need. I don't need to control every moment or try to do everything on my own.
I need Jesus.
I am still going through this process. I'm still climbing the mountain- almost at the top.
I do, however have some things that God has taught me along the way:
In order to move forward, I need to surrender. I don't have the best plan, He does.
I can trust God. Not just with health or finances or ministry, but with everything.
He hears my prayers. He hears them. He cares. He loves me with an everlasting love.
I go to God and say "Lord, I feel heavy. I feel burdened. What do you want me to do? How do I get rid of this mess? I need to know what to do."
and He tells me "you need to let me in. the reason you have a heavy weight is because you haven't surrendered it to me. give me your worry and stress and I will take it. YOU don't need to do anything. let ME take care of it."
Trusting God seems so easy. Of course I trust Him. These past couple of months, though, I have been asking Him what that means.....and I am realizing I have a lot to learn about surrender.
God IS trustworthy. He is faithful and kind. In all of my mess, He is so great.